Unplanned happiness

I was a little crushed when my hubs asked me if I'm happy we got Ayla.Of course I won't lie and that's why it's still 50/50 to me. Just understand me right, I'll never harm her or even attempt to get rid of her, and I do love her. But she is my unplanned child. I'm a Master of planning, so I'm still adjusting. Now I understand why mom was always saying: " Kids are the happiness. Got the kids, still waiting for the happiness." It's overwhelming sometimes.
And the best part of all this is, that Ayla is getting smarter and a lot of my complains will go away with her growing up and just more happiness is still to come:)

I still don't get why is she so skinny, she eats like an elephant!:)